Category: My Open Heart

Not Again

It hurts this morning, it really hurts. The loss is so present. The pain feels so real. I am simply in disbelief that I am here and Kathy is not. I am reeling in my sense of aloneness. She really should be here right now.   I thought my recent time of quiet would let…

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Has It Been Eight Months?

Has it been eight months since you left us, or was that just yesterday? Has it been a lifetime since we were together or was that really only eight months ago? Has it been, that time may be standing still, and in eight months you have never left my side? I feel you at my…

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In This Moment

In this moment, I feel my heart inside that is so broken open. I feel the gaping hole that remains from losing the love of my life. I feel the raw pain and hurt that is still so present.   In this moment, I am aware that this broken heart is a heart opened in…

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I Am Choosing to Grieve

Last July,┬ámy wife Kathy died from breast cancer that had spread to her liver. She was in treatment for over 15 months, had been placed in the “remission” group after a year, and then in a matter of 3 weeks the cancer came roaring back and consumed her liver. I can’t even remember the last…

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A Journey of Healing

A broken heart gives way to an open heart and in the pain, sorrow and bewilderment the search continues for the elements that will lead to a healing heart.